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Sunday, August 18th, 2002
12:35 am	Damn The Video Store Well it's 12:35 and I'm just getting home. I'm so tired it was very busy tonight. Then when we had everything done at 11:57 This family of assholes came it and we have to let them finish their shopping before we can close. What asses. Somone called in sick so I had to cover the closing shift. I hate that place. I need to find a new job. But I'd have to be flexable and I'd have to beable to not work many hours due to my school work and stuff. Oh well, I feel bad for missing out on everything agian. I guess it's my own fault. time for bed. (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 17th, 2002
12:16 am	Hey Yall Well, Andy my best friend in the world is gone to Tulsa...It's sad. I'm moving all of my focus in my life on to the band. I've found a guy who is stoked about doing the grapic layout for our upcomming CD. The band Is becomming my life and I guess that's ok. Recording in less than a month! No one is online so I guess you're all out with eachother. I miss that. Oh well. The warm glow of War Craft III is keeping me safe. (Comment on this)
Friday, August 16th, 2002
1:23 am	Take one for the team! Well today I had to cancel my gutiar order. Well, I didn't have to but I did if for a very logical reason. First of all I don't NEED this bass. The one I have is perfectly fine, it's somthing I just WANT! However I can buy it later or just by a cheeper finder mexican bass. Seconldy not buying this bass with give me around 1000 dollars in the bank...we need this money to help fund this CD. Once the CD is done I'm going to reorder the bass of my dreams. Untill then the one I have now will do just fine. They said I canceld at the last min...so there is still a chance it will be sent here. However, if it is I'll just keep the damn thing it will be a pain in the ass to send it back. But I hope it is canceld. This is money I need to get the CD done now. So I figure I'll save it by not buying the bass of my dreams. I can buy that in six months the CD needs to be done now. So I'm taking one for the team so I'll have 1000 bucks to spend on the band. instead of scrapping for 500. I'll by the bass later spend on the CD now. Hopfully we'll make enough on the CD to pay me back in 6 months anyways. LOVE Zac (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 15th, 2002
1:34 am	work I came home because I couldn't ever get a hold of my grandma. I'm really tired. Work sucked but I worked with a really cool guy from Zimbabwe. He was nifty. I ordered my guitar!!! I could be here in a week. I ordered 12 hats! They should be here in a week! I ordered a CD it should be here in 3 days! I have a happy fun mail time comming up soon! I LOVE ME! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 14th, 2002
3:32 pm	The Evil Within I have to work at the family video st.louis store agian tonight. I worked there last night. That place is like hell. It's in a state of major disrepair. Gang member meet at the corner to sell drugs and they pay off their 2 dollar late fees with 100 dollar bills. I hate thinking this is where my dad grew up. Only three people work there in a given night however there is a need for about 6. I don't feel safe running depostes there. The manager there asked me why I seemed like I was in my own world there. I wanted to say it was because I hate you and I don't want to be there. However I said, "i'm tired". I hate that store more than anything on earth. On a good note, I've ordered 12 Two Cent Tip hats, to go with the 50 Two Cent Tip stickers we have. I plan on getting some T-Shirts made soon too. I also found an awesome CD printing place. (Comment on this)
Monday, August 12th, 2002
9:42 am	Left Knee I reinjured my knee while entertaining the masses at the veta sports show. It hurts like a mug. I think it may be some torn somthing, I hobble around like a fat hobbit...This could mean a live show break for Two Cent Tip if worse comes to worse. (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 11th, 2002
11:23 am	I like to kill things Like chips. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 8th, 2002
8:30 am	I'm in a better fucking place now I have a busy fucking day! I have to go to this fucking class that i've been taking. It's fucking bland as hell and I just want it to be over god damn it. Oh, well at least I dont' have to waste a whole fucking semister on it....right? This week and next week I work a shit load. But that's o fucking k becuase my poor ass needs the fucking money for this fucking new bass guitar I want to spend shit loads of fucking money on. I'm in a better fucking mood today, my problems don't seem so big anymore and plus i've got good fucking friends like you shit heads that try to help me despite my lack of being around you ever anymore due to school and work and all that shit. So thanks a lot fuckers. I'm glad to see Paul is on this fucking jounral thing now. It's pretty fucking cool. Paul are you playing with our fucking asses on satur fucking day? I hope you, you make us sound pretty fucking good. Punkrock! I wrote a new song, I Have some simple fucking guitar chords for scott to use then Paul can do his fucking talent thing on it. It's going to have simple fucking slow Ramones drum beat. Download, "I don't want to go to the party tonight" by The Riverdales. That's how the drum beat needs to be in the fucking first part the other part steve can do his fucking thing too and steve it up....I have an Idea for him but he dosn't have to use the fucking beat, i'm not stuck on that pice of shit idea anyways. Well, i'm getting my fucking hair dyed bloond agian today, fucker! (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 6th, 2002
6:18 pm	Offf to work And I have to work the next 3 days. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
4:43 pm	The Bass issue Some of you who clicked on the link may have noticed that the bass is the Mark Hoppus signature bass. Some may see my move of buying this bass as a "sell out" move. Well, I played the bass and I love it. It has a fender jazz base, a fender P series neck. It only has a valume nob. I love the bass because it sounds like a good punk rock bass, it's made for people who suck. So there. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 29th, 2002
11:18 pm	On a side note I bought my first real punk rock CD at the end of 8th grade. I had finished watching Green Day's performance at Woodstock 94'. Mike had a Screeching Weasel shirt on. I wondered what "Screeching Weasel" was. Later that week i was in a record store and I came across the S's section. I found out that Screeching Weasel was a band. A punk rock band from Chicago. So I bought, "Anthem for a new Tomorrow". The CD changed the way I felt about life. I hated school, I hated high school even more. I hated the smell, the people the teachers the building and the parking lot. I felt alone and I was filled with anger. Sure I had some friends, but the few couldn't out weigh the pain and hate I had inside me. The feeling of invisibility and rejection demanded an outlet. Without an outlet kids end up going to school one day and shooting everyone. Punk rock saved me. With out it i'm 100% sure I would have killed myself or someone else. "An Anthem for a new Tomorrow" wasn't a first rate recording job or even a second rate on for that matter. I loved it. The guys felt how I feel, they wrote about things I could understand. I knew they were just like me. Punk bands like Screeching Weasel, MTX, The Queers, The Ramones, Green Day, Nerf Herder all sang about things I felt. They were me. After this I surrounded myself in punk rock. I loved the honest yet fun punk bands. I love American punk bands, they sing about the little problems in life that seem much more pertinent than any fucking Queen in England. Who gives a shit about the Queen when no one likes you and a girl just broke your heart? I felt invisible, but I knew these guys felt invisible too. I know when the Queers come to town once every two years or so that everyone who is there is someone who feels like they are invisible. Which brings me to my point. When people knock punk rock, and say it sucks or that they are sick of it I take it very personally. Simply because punk rocked saved me and it is who I am. A punk band that you like isn't just a band, it's a part of who you are. A true punk is someone who was effected by punk the way I was. I love punk rock, it is who I am. (Comment on this)
Friday, July 26th, 2002
5:42 pm	My Day We had bad practice today. Things went ok although our bass player situation is up in the air. I just wish we could find a decent punk rock bass player. I guy that knows punk music like the Queers and the Ramones but has a little more talent than the average punk bass player. Danny Vapid would be perfect. Scott and Steve told me all about the mall adventure and I laughed my ass off, the part about the guy stealing the ticket was great, although the guy shocking Scott at the phone came close. I work tomarrow from 2 to 8, I asked off but they didn't give it to me. I supose it had somthing to do with not working Thursday through Monday next week, I'm going to my moms. I'm having my grad party this Sunday. I'm pretty sure no one is comming but that's fine with me, who really gives a shit. Andy Walz and I should have a good time at least. Blah Blah Blah. Tonight I have nothing to do, maybe I'll find somwhere to stir up some trouble. Who knows. (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 21st, 2002
8:02 pm	Today Today I decided to hunt the shark that has been killing everyone at the beach. It's been going on long enough, I've taken a local student with me. He knows very much about sharks as he is an expert. The only hunter crazy enough to help us hunt the shark was a WWII veteran. His Naval ship was sunk by the Japanese. Sharks ate most of his friends. On the ship we hunted the shark for a few days with a minimal success. On the last night we started to drink and sing loudly, the shark attacked are boat as we reached our encore. The fight was hard, I had thought I would die as well as my student friend. However we killed and the shark and somhow swam home. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 20th, 2002
10:20 pm	Work Sucked I'm home, I rented "Boogie Nights" and "Latoya Jackson Live". I'm going to go watch them soon. Work sucked, I was working with a girl that I have a deep hate for, and I worked a long shift. (Comment on this)
Friday, July 19th, 2002
11:33 am	My computer has a god awful virus. It uploads it's self to every program you use then renders the program useless automatically. I've gotten some stuff on my computer to work. Then it gets destroyed which means every time I sign on AOL IM then sign off the virus uploads its self and I have to re download AIM. Right now I'm using a really old version of Netscape. Lately things haven't been to good. I'm only happy about one thing really. The new songs our band has come up with. One is called "Peter Galloway the Teenage Psycho" the other is "She stabbed me in the heart". (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 16th, 2002
5:15 pm	The Panic Button The last few days I've had nothing but pain and suffering. It's my duty to watch three grade school cousins over the next day. (and yesterday). So far it's been close to hell, they fight and eat and then annoy me. Two of them broke my bass. It's now at Kevin Bachman's house for fixing. They aren't too bad if you can get them to watch a movie. Last night they watched two. First they watched "Salt Water Moose", it was about two kids who find a moose on an island. Then they find out the moose is alone so they try to catch a female moose and put her on the island. The second movie was called victory. It's about allied prisoners in WWII who where forced to play soccer. As some of you may know I received a 50 cent raise at work last week. Today they gave me another raise by mistake, thank god for constantly changing management! Now I have gotten a dollar raise. I'm making 7.50 for doing work that is for all intensive purposes, easy. I'm jealous of Scott for having rolled on Mrs. Batenhourse's bed. I would like to have sex or fool around on that bed, although not necessarily with Scott. For those of you who don't know I like Scott have mental heath "issues". Back in Freshmen year I started having panic attacks. Basically you start sweating, feeling extremely uncomfortable, can't focus and essentially go into a full state of panic. I had my first panic attack in two years two days ago. It didn't really stem from anything. Mainly it used to happen in groups of people, enclosed rooms, large open areas with many people, etc. This one happened when I stopped by after work to visit some old friends. The room was full of people and I only knew maybe two of them. I just started feeling a massive urge to leave, then the panic attack started. No one noticed or cared to notice and it didn't last too long, thank god. Eventually I was able to gather myself enough and leave. I guess that's why I enjoy joking with Scott about his mental health, because I'm just as nuts as he is. Current Music: Lagwagon, "Mr. Coffie" (Comment on this)
Friday, July 12th, 2002
11:21 am	The life of a puppy That last few days I have done nothing but work. I did go to visit my grandpa. He seemed happy to visit with me. I don't think anyone ever visits or calls and it makes him feel old and useless. I have blond hair now too. I think it looks good although no one has really seen it yet. NO time means I must go. Bye. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 8th, 2002
11:28 am	An Update at Last Lack of journal updates is sad. My little sister come up from K.C. to visit this weekend. She is funny, as she gets older she is much much more tolerable that she used to be. We used to fight non stop. This weekend there wasn't even a minor scuffle. She's a life guard at a pool and she told some funny stories. One day there was a little kid's field trip at her pool. While all the teachers were in the change room the little kids started running out and randomly jumping into the pool...she said there were hundreds of them all jumping in with no adults. Better yet the Pre-School kids couldn't even swim. So the life guards had to jump in and save massive amounts of kids. I've been working a lot and I'm getting ready for Pretend College. I'm jealous of all those who are going away. I wish I was going away too, however I know it's best that I stay here. Best money wise and Best mentally. I know if I went away I'd be getting wasted every night and not doing my work ever. I know for a fact I wouldn't do shit for school work. Tonight we work on new songs, I might run to some pawn shops today and hang out. I love pawn shops. Current Mood: blank Current Music: Pistol Grip (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 4th, 2002
2:34 pm	Happy 4th of Babeuary Hey, today is the lords day of happy fun time. I work today. That sucks, no fun or no fire today for me. I'm hungery are any food houses open? (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 2nd, 2002
11:29 pm	Today was good wicked Good Today I picked up the new Green Day CD. It's very good, i love it. I also picked up the new Flogging Molly CD which happens to be awesome. I paid of my car insurance tonight, 275 big ones. Tonight, after work, I saw the movie "Mr. Deeds" It was funny. Tomarrow I'm going to see "Men in Black 2" Latley my life has centered around, work, band practice, video games, sleep.....I have had little time for fun, or realtionships be they friend or romantic. I've been feeling really alone, however I have been at peace. I guess it's somewhat depressing but I have money now and can play the song "Longview"....That is cool to me. (Comment on this)